NUMBER TWO

Today I went and saw think like a man and it got me thinking, what happened to me??? I used to be an independent, capable, confident woman. Today find myself as a game being played with and put away with absolutely no care, the question I'm facing us how did this happen to me??? How did life in 28 short years convince me i was worth less??? And why did I buy into the hype??? And perhaps most importantly now that I realize what's happening what can I do to change this, if anything??? I guess I should start at the beginning, I've started my blog for theraputic reasons life has been so up and down for me that I'm lost...I find it hard to share my feelings with people and i need to get these things out. I hope that by writing this I can somehow sort through the chaos that is my mind and if not perhaps ill gain some sort of clarity in the process. I am Laura and I'm 28 years old, I have two children that are adopted, and until about a month ago I had been single going on 4 years. My children are 12 and 9 and due to my loveless childhood and lack of a family unit I decided adoption was best for my children. I still barely manage to deal with the guilt and the fact that they are loved and well cared for does little to convince me i made a good decision. I did however make it because I know it was best, and excuse me for being selfish but I am no better off for it. I feel like this is enough for today.... ELLE